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I wrote my journal in Japanese and in English. I would be very glad, if you help me with my English.

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娘を妊娠していた時よりはるかに重くなってしまった私の体重。
記憶力は簡単に減っていくが、体重は簡単に減っていかない。
とりあえず、おやつをやめよう、と決心したのが１か月前。
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One month ago, I was the heaviest I had ever been. My weight was much heavier than the one with my daughter in pregnancy.
I’m sad, it’s easy to lose sharp memory, but it’s not easy to lose fat.
I decided to live without eating sweet treats.

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約２週間前。
デパートで、堂島ロールを売っていても買わなかった。
そう、私としてはかなり頑張ったのだ。
しかし娘に言われてしまった。
「私は食べたかったのに・・・。」
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About two weeks ago, I found they sold cream rolls which were very delicious and famous at the department store, but I didn’t buy it. I tried hard.
When I spoke it to my daughter at home, she said that she wanted to taste the famous cream roll. Oh, sorry, my daughter.

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その数日後。
夫が微笑みをたたえて帰ってきた。
「これ。」
私と娘に差し出した物は・・・。
！！！
堂島ロール！
それも２本！
娘　「あ！嬉しいー！」
私　「・・・・・。」

結局食べてしまった・・・。
さあ、堂島ロールも片付いたことだし、これから頑張ろう。

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A few days later, my husband came home with smiling, and showed something to her and me. That was…, that was…., the famous cream roll! And two rolls! Oh, my!
She exclaimed with delight, “Oh, daddy! Thank you so much! I’m glad!”
Oh, my husband, sorry, I’m not glad…. .
After all, I ate two pieces of the roll.
But never give up!
Well, change the mood, and try again!

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先週、夫、夫の妹、娘、私で食事に行った。
注文を間違えてデザートを５個頼んでしまった。
夫はいらないと言う。
仕方がない。３人で食べることに。
結局しっかり食べてしまった・・・。
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Last week, I went out for lunch with my husband, his sister, and our daughter.
We ordered five pieces of cake for dessert by mistake. My husband didn’t want to eat it. So we three women eat up all of them.
But never give up!
Well, change the mood, and try again!

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昨日実家にいる時、友人が母にシュークリームをたくさん買ってきてくれた。
我が家の分を持ち帰り・・・、結局食べてしまった・・・。
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Yesterday, during I was at my parents’ home, my friend visited my mother with many cream puffs. I got 6 puffs and went home. I tried not to eat them, but …, but I ate 2 puffs.
But never give up!
Well, change the mood, and try again!

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映画ロード・オブ・ザ・リングで、エルフの奥方が指輪を自分のものにしたいという誘惑に耐えた時言っていたっけ。
「私は試練に耐えた。　I passed the test.」
へえ、試練ってtestなんだ、と思った。
今その言葉が頭をよぎる。
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I remember a line in a movie:The Lord of the Rings.
Lady Galadriel, an elf-queen, played by Cate Blanchett had a desire to get the ring. When she fought down her desire, she said, “I passed the test.”

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私は試練に耐えられなかった。
でも、めげちゃいけない。過去の過ちが何よ。大切なのはこれからの自分。
人生は試練の連続。誘惑の連続。
負けないわ。
今年こそ、今年こそ、痩せてみせる！
・・・・・でも、冷凍庫に、チーズケーキが眠っているのを私は忘れていない。
試練は続く。
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I didn’t pass some tests…. .
But my past mistakes don’t matter. My doing from now, that matters.
Life is a series of tests. I know it. And I will overcome many difficulties and lose excess fat this year.
I will control my appetite. I will pass the test.
Yes, I will!
Yes, I can!
But…. I keep remembering them, which are some cheese cakes in our freezer.
Can I pass the test?